Crap, Totally forgot about blogging yesterday. We had to get Mom off to Italy for the start of her Adriatic cruise, then I was supposed to work but when I got there Scott meant Next thursday not yesterday so I bought Cordy a new chariot, one that comes with a front wheel and a handlebar to push it instead of our jerry rigged model and then we watched "True Grit" and fell asleep all bundled up together on the bed and then it was morning. Ooops.
But yesterday was the wealth of having Time Off! Yes, yes indeedy we got some unexpected bonus time off! YAY! Last week, in order to make a good impression on our new baby manager- 25 year olds, first time store manager, hence baby manager- I took a shift on Monday at another store and instantly regretted it. Yesterday morning that store manager called to tell me that he had two people covering that shift and so I jumped at the chance to take it off. YAY! I have an actual holiday off! Then I went out to work at Scott's new store only to discover that he meant Next week, not last night and so I got Another Bonus Day off. AND to top it All off I finally got in touch with one of my editors only to discover that the reason why I hadn't heard from her was because their publication goes on hiatus until August. BONUS! I now have the Entire Month of July to veg and chill and soak up the sun in Cordy's pool and actualy have a summer for once. I am giddy with delight.
This morning I was up and out mowing the lawn before I'd even had my first cup of coffee. Very strange but now it's done so I don't have to think about it anymore. Both of the dogs are still asleep completely vegged with the AC blowing on them. I need to put Cordy's new chariot together and take them out for a spin but then I'm going to come back and take a nap of my own before going in to work. Technically I could call in since I broke my pinky toe two nights ago but I don't want to spend the next four hours calling people to see who can cover my shift so we'll see how it goes.
So, today and for the next few weeks, I have a wealth of free time. BLISS!
Friday, July 1, 2011
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Day 21
Today's wealth is about health. I have a cold and I'm pathetic when I have a cold and even more so when I know exactly how I created it. I hate that. I knew it as I was doing it and I did it anyway and now I have a cold.
It's a situation at work and since I don't want it to live in perpetuity here on the internet, suffice it to say that it may be resolving itself and I'm praying that it does. I needed a reason to be off work this weekend and the kicker is that now that I have it, a cold, I know I won't use it because in order to use it I have to get a doctors note and I don't want to go through everything that entails to get one. So, I'll suck it up and go to work anyway. I know, I'm perfectly stupid but there we go.
So, more tonight than anytime in the past months do I appreciate my wealth of health that I usually enjoy fully.
It's a situation at work and since I don't want it to live in perpetuity here on the internet, suffice it to say that it may be resolving itself and I'm praying that it does. I needed a reason to be off work this weekend and the kicker is that now that I have it, a cold, I know I won't use it because in order to use it I have to get a doctors note and I don't want to go through everything that entails to get one. So, I'll suck it up and go to work anyway. I know, I'm perfectly stupid but there we go.
So, more tonight than anytime in the past months do I appreciate my wealth of health that I usually enjoy fully.
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Day 20
A ball. Such a simple object yet it can bring almost incomprehensible joy and utter devastation to those both playing with it and watching the players play. Right now I'm watching Amy doing her best to entice me to play with the ball with her. So far it's bounced off of my nose, my computer screen, my shoulder, my nose and my coffee cup. She has tossed it, pawed it, laid on it, dropped it, slinkied it down the stairs, chased after it, bitten it, squeaked it and laid her head on it so that it let out a very slowwwwww painful squeak.
Cordy has a ball too but he's not deigning to play with it yet. So far he just wants to keep his ball away from Amy-girl dogs have cooties you know. Oh, there he goes, he squeaked it. (First time he's played with anything since January YAY!) Now Amy is running down the stairs to toss her ball at him. Yep, he now has two balls- two different tones being squeaked at once.
Now Amy is running up the stairs to tell me that Cordy took her ball- dogs just don't get the consequences of their actions thing despite my endless repetitions of explaining how these things work. Sigh.
Oh, she got the ball back. I know that because it's sogginess is sitting in the middle of my lap. So, tonight's wealth is Play. Being able to Play is priceless. Gotta go, I'm being pawed to death.
Cordy has a ball too but he's not deigning to play with it yet. So far he just wants to keep his ball away from Amy-girl dogs have cooties you know. Oh, there he goes, he squeaked it. (First time he's played with anything since January YAY!) Now Amy is running down the stairs to toss her ball at him. Yep, he now has two balls- two different tones being squeaked at once.
Now Amy is running up the stairs to tell me that Cordy took her ball- dogs just don't get the consequences of their actions thing despite my endless repetitions of explaining how these things work. Sigh.
Oh, she got the ball back. I know that because it's sogginess is sitting in the middle of my lap. So, tonight's wealth is Play. Being able to Play is priceless. Gotta go, I'm being pawed to death.
Monday, June 27, 2011
Day 19
Family Time. I love family time. Tonight my Mom cooked a wonderful dinner of roast beef, baked potatoes and fresh corn on the cob. Cordy and Amy had the last of the leg of the lamb I cooked the other night and some of the roast beef on their raw food. After dinner we all had a group nap while watching NCIS re-runs. On Thursday Mom leaves for Venice and her cruise and it was inordinately wonderful to spend the evening having dinner and napping together in front of the tv.
Tonight's and today's wealth comes from Family. I love my family as strange and weird as it is. Having a family around me is my true wealth.
Tonight's and today's wealth comes from Family. I love my family as strange and weird as it is. Having a family around me is my true wealth.
Day 18
The Drama! The Excitement! The TEDIUM of Drama!
There's a woman at work who is not my favorite. For the past several weeks she's been working at another store and it wasn't until she came back yesterday that I realized why my stress level had fallen so preciptiously. There had been no drama. Okay so not very much drama. Okay so a different kind of drama. But today all hell broke loose. There were tears and shouting and fingers shaking in faces and loud accusations and quiet sobbing and I'm just there to make coffee and steal ice for Cordy boy.
So I "uh-huh'd" and "awwww'd" and "Ohhh'd" and patted backs and gave hugs and all but shoved them all out the door to enjoy some peace and quiet with my geeky gaming boy coworker who gave me the breadth and depth of the "Cannon' they use to play an RPG game that used to be called Dungeons and Dragons- played with elves and dwarves and mages- but is now called something else and is played with vampires and werewolves and humans-but the vampires don't sparkle. And all of the intricate rules of the game in a running commentary to which I "un-huh'd" and "awwwww'd" and Ohhhh'd" until our escape at closing time.
I all but collapsed on top of Cordy when I got home, digging deep into his calm, peaceful, joyful centeredness that he is to anchor myself once more in my happy place. I have a whole new respect for the idea behind The Scarlet Letter. Some people should just come with warning signs hung around their necks and with pause or mute buttons.
But it became clear to me on a whole new level how artificial it all was and how self generated it all was. Three of the people involved were obviously into it. Something within them was taking great satisfaction in the chaos. It was fascinating to watch unfold. The one woman in particular always has something dire about to happen on the horizon and it wasn't until yesterday that I realized how exhausting I find that to be around. BUT for the first time, I didn't go there with her. I kept my objective viewpoint and watched as she danced at the end of her own strings, strings that she was fully in control of but thrashed herself around anyway.
Luckily, I have the next four days off from there. I plan on listening to all of the audio's nonstop, tapping until I'm bruised and hoping against hope that a miracle will happen to keep me from having to go back this weekend. Life's too short for drama.
So, today's wealth is found in living a exciting, fulfilling, peacefully, joyfilled life, like we do. Priceless.
There's a woman at work who is not my favorite. For the past several weeks she's been working at another store and it wasn't until she came back yesterday that I realized why my stress level had fallen so preciptiously. There had been no drama. Okay so not very much drama. Okay so a different kind of drama. But today all hell broke loose. There were tears and shouting and fingers shaking in faces and loud accusations and quiet sobbing and I'm just there to make coffee and steal ice for Cordy boy.
So I "uh-huh'd" and "awwww'd" and "Ohhh'd" and patted backs and gave hugs and all but shoved them all out the door to enjoy some peace and quiet with my geeky gaming boy coworker who gave me the breadth and depth of the "Cannon' they use to play an RPG game that used to be called Dungeons and Dragons- played with elves and dwarves and mages- but is now called something else and is played with vampires and werewolves and humans-but the vampires don't sparkle. And all of the intricate rules of the game in a running commentary to which I "un-huh'd" and "awwwww'd" and Ohhhh'd" until our escape at closing time.
I all but collapsed on top of Cordy when I got home, digging deep into his calm, peaceful, joyful centeredness that he is to anchor myself once more in my happy place. I have a whole new respect for the idea behind The Scarlet Letter. Some people should just come with warning signs hung around their necks and with pause or mute buttons.
But it became clear to me on a whole new level how artificial it all was and how self generated it all was. Three of the people involved were obviously into it. Something within them was taking great satisfaction in the chaos. It was fascinating to watch unfold. The one woman in particular always has something dire about to happen on the horizon and it wasn't until yesterday that I realized how exhausting I find that to be around. BUT for the first time, I didn't go there with her. I kept my objective viewpoint and watched as she danced at the end of her own strings, strings that she was fully in control of but thrashed herself around anyway.
Luckily, I have the next four days off from there. I plan on listening to all of the audio's nonstop, tapping until I'm bruised and hoping against hope that a miracle will happen to keep me from having to go back this weekend. Life's too short for drama.
So, today's wealth is found in living a exciting, fulfilling, peacefully, joyfilled life, like we do. Priceless.
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Day 17
It's funny how you don't realize you're in a loop until you get out of it. I realized today that I have been smooshing myself in order to fit in at work. I hate and despise smooshing myself and vowed not to do that years and years ago, but yet, I did it again, not consciously but I still did it.
See, I'm good at what I do, that's not bragging it's just a fact. If I'm going to do something, spend a significant part of my life partaking in activity, then I dedicate myself to do it and strive for mastery. It's just logical. What I realized today is that I had smooshed myself in order to raise another up, actually a group of others and shockingly, yet again, I realized that it simply doesn't work that way. So, I'm an idiot. It wasn't until I found myself playing with customers and being stupid, like I do, that I hadn't been being stupid with customers for months. I like being stupid with customers, it makes the day go faster and the tip jar fill up. I raise people up by bringing them joy, making them laugh, being stupid basically, not by smooshing myself down in order to make them look better in comparison. All that does is make me feel all cramped up and cranky. ARG! I know this! I learned this A Long, LONG time ago! ARG!
So, today's true wealth is found in being myself in all of my glory and if they can't take it.......NOT my problem. I'm going to have that tattooed on my inner right arm so that I have to read it fifty thousand times a day. Oh and I got a massive organic, free range, grass fed lamb roast for half off. BONUS Wealth! :-)!!!
See, I'm good at what I do, that's not bragging it's just a fact. If I'm going to do something, spend a significant part of my life partaking in activity, then I dedicate myself to do it and strive for mastery. It's just logical. What I realized today is that I had smooshed myself in order to raise another up, actually a group of others and shockingly, yet again, I realized that it simply doesn't work that way. So, I'm an idiot. It wasn't until I found myself playing with customers and being stupid, like I do, that I hadn't been being stupid with customers for months. I like being stupid with customers, it makes the day go faster and the tip jar fill up. I raise people up by bringing them joy, making them laugh, being stupid basically, not by smooshing myself down in order to make them look better in comparison. All that does is make me feel all cramped up and cranky. ARG! I know this! I learned this A Long, LONG time ago! ARG!
So, today's true wealth is found in being myself in all of my glory and if they can't take it.......NOT my problem. I'm going to have that tattooed on my inner right arm so that I have to read it fifty thousand times a day. Oh and I got a massive organic, free range, grass fed lamb roast for half off. BONUS Wealth! :-)!!!
Friday, June 24, 2011
Day 16
Hmmmmm, not sure how to rate today. On the one hand it was a Very good day. With all of the exercise I got this weekend I'm feeling very mellow and at peace with my fellow beings. On the other I just found out that my manager has been moved to another store effective today and we have a brand new 24 year old manager taking over our store. It could be a good thing. It could be a Very good thing. Of course I'd finally gotten Scott trained perfectly and it's frankly tiring to think about starting all over again but training is what I do, so, maybe not. I don't know. I guess I need more information.
Cordy is loving life and is as happy as the happiest clam that has ever lived. Amy and he get along just beautifully and to be honest not a lot has changed in our daily lives with her here. That's a really good thing and I'm incredibly thankful for it.
On Sunday my friend Margaritta goes to visit her family in Colombia. On Thursday my Mom heads off to Venice. On Friday a family of our regulars heads off to Paris and on Saturday another regular heads off to London. There must be a great trip headed our way as well. I think it's circling us, waiting for the perfect moment to pounce.
Cordy is loving life and is as happy as the happiest clam that has ever lived. Amy and he get along just beautifully and to be honest not a lot has changed in our daily lives with her here. That's a really good thing and I'm incredibly thankful for it.
On Sunday my friend Margaritta goes to visit her family in Colombia. On Thursday my Mom heads off to Venice. On Friday a family of our regulars heads off to Paris and on Saturday another regular heads off to London. There must be a great trip headed our way as well. I think it's circling us, waiting for the perfect moment to pounce.
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